Pavel

Pavel feels that his fear and anxiety are almost unbearable. For several weeks he has been fighting with an intensive feeling of hopelessness and tension, feelings that have for some time formed an inherent part of his life. From outside it can seem that he is doing well, but his inner thoughts create a growing pressure. He gradually starts looking for ways to numb these feelings or beat them by physical pain. He feels that this is the only thing he can finally control. For the first time he scratched his wrist with hope that the pain in his body would numb the mental pain. Every time he is gripped by panic and hopelessness he opts for self-harm more often. For a moment he feels relieved, but then he starts feeling even more guilty and ashamed. Pavel feels that he is sinking deeper and deeper in the spiral of dark thoughts and at the same time he is afraid of sharing that with somebody, because he believes that nobody would understand him anyway.